Warning: Raw emotions enclosed.


A mother and a father, all at the same time

Comes with a blessing, but also of judgment.


The options are limited

Most of the time, you are on your own

Making decisions

Following every schedule

Making sure they get enough attention

Hoping they embrace every situation

And praying they eat and drink to repletion.


Where do you run to?

To whom will you confide with?

How do you make sure everything is reloaded?

When you yourself is on the brink of depletion?


You had your highs and your lows

Pitying your lowest of lows

Forgetting that you also had your winnings

Making you ready for every kind of trying.


Yes, you have every reason to retreat

Every reason to take off

This, however, is not an alternative.

So you move forward

Even with just enough strength

Sometimes, you faked it

Oftentimes, you pretended you have it

Still showing off a smile

That everything is all right.


Others wondered,

Why are you not breaking?

Why do you stand still fighting?

You discreetly asked yourself.

You knew you have answers.


The tiny laughter

That fills the hallway

The smiles that you see

Across from the other room

The happy eyes that you

Carefully notice


These are more than enough

To  keep you as a warrior.



Once in a while, give yourself some grace

And please always remember

That God is with you now and forever!


Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”


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